Learning to See God for Myself

 In this “Joyful Contemplation”, what attribute stands out to me about God, as far as I have come to know Him? This is what I was asking myself. I landed on this one, “gentleness” He has been so gentle to me.  It has meant everything to me for personal reasons. I’m so thankful and grateful that God is really “gentle.” It says so in His word which I will give at the end of this musing.

To experience this myself in my most hell on earth days; when I certainly didn’t deserve it nor even expect it….that is something! And I would have to say that I wasn’t even aware of it at the time. It didn’t occur to me when I was having these experiences because I had no grid for it. It often takes a “look back” to see things one didn’t see even in the experience, but since this is joyful I will not dwell on my past because I have experienced such healing through the years. Anyway, I now focus on the present and the future, since He has one for me and I look at it with hope. 

I once was blind but now I see! His Grace-Mr. Grace, has enabled me to see and I can appreciate the riches of His glorious Grace. This is just one attribute of course, but I was talking to Him and thanking Him for it;  it seemed like He was glad and had a smile on His face listening intently. His gentleness…..


I wanted to write something under this picture but it wouldn’t let me…mmmmm; maybe I have to learn how to do that instead of just assuming that it would let me. Ok so here are a few Scriptures that speak of our Lord’s gentleness.

Mat. 11:29, 11 Cor. 10:1a, Gal. 5:23, Eph. 4:2; just a few and some to do with the fruit of the Holy Spirit.

My question to my readers is; “what is His “stand out” attribute been for you? Ponder that one…..and once you capture it, hold it with your heart and bless Him with copious thanks and what that means to you….tell Him!


Doesn’t this look like a nice place to sit on a comfortable beach chair and contemplate….all day?

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Need to Post This….from 9/22

 Last night as I was trying to sleep; as the dryer was still running, I had flipped over to lay on my left side on my futon. I suddenly heard a deluge of rain quickly coming down in sheets. I also heard the crackling and rumbling of thunder. At the time I really thought that it was happening outside my window, it was so real. I lifted my head off my pillow but all I could hear was the dryer. I put my head back down and I heard the same thing but this time I saw something that looked like the map of the USA but it was not on paper. I perceived Jesus and He took our whole country like it was a sheet. He had put it in His washing machine, put His “Tide” as I could see the container, His Bleach; His kind in the machine, He set the dial for Permanent Press and turned it to 45 min. (I knew that He had already done these things) anyway, I knew that His wash cycle had begun, hence my hearing the sheets of rain and the rumbling and crackling of thunder. I also perceived that when USA was done He would take us out, flip us like cloth that had been bundled due to the completion of the wash cycle, throw us in the dryer, set it with Wrinkle Guard on Permanent Press again and turn the dryer on. I couldn’t see or perceive how long USA was to dry. He was smiling as He later took USA out of the dryer wrinkle free and smooth as silk. I noted the whole thing had completed before midnight. I knew that He was serious when He went about rolling us up (USA) before stuffing us in the washer and happy and sunny when He took us out of the dryer; and all this before midnight. What came to me as I pondered this vision/encounter; because I was awake but my eyes were shut, was that the wash cycle was His blood washing and cleansing USA, crackling/rumbling of thunder-His Saints prayers; those of our Forefathers and ours together, Perm. Press; His desired results-Permanent! The snap of the cloth-like USA; for straightening the fibers….prep. for drying.It was His dryer with Perm. results/wrinkle guard with no more wrinkles and smooth as silk; exactly the way He wants us. His happiness and sunniness; about everything but in this interpretation (Sonny) This is so loaded….but He wants us to be in a Sonny disposition about the whole thing because He knows what He is doing. I also noted that before He picked up USA and put it in His washer, everything was dark/black, around USA but He did this before midnight and everything in His creation went through the process. There is nothing to fear and many scriptures went through my mind as I was experiencing this. It is layered with promise especially for His Saints! God handled everything and He was happy with the results; He even gave me a Happy Face sticker at the very end; sunny and yellow! Thoughts are welcome here….it really was something!


I just had to post this one as I feel like my journey just shifted in a new way on this date on 9/22.  If I look back from this encounter it seems like my spiritual senses have heightened in some way; sharper, clearer and I believe it even affected my spiritual hearing. I have been more alert if you will, and I’m listening even more and as I’m more quiet I think I am able to receive more. When I started out walking in the Spirit it was like that show; “My Favorite Martian” to me and my spiritual antennae popped up and I caught the beeps; I even would hear static and I would ask the Lord to make my ears super sharp to hear Him. Those were my early days when I just started walking with Him…..in the Spirit. Did I know at all what I was doing? Nope; I just read things in His word that I thought was normal and every Christian walked like this….not! I know now that He was training me, putting me in His School of the Holy Spirit to follow His voice and His alone and He would tell me at times “not to consult with flesh and blood.” That was hard as in this walk I felt quite alone in the first place and for Him to say that ? It was against the Christian grain at that time but I see now that He wanted me to learn to hear Him and recognize Him when He was speaking amidst all other voices…..so, I followed and it felt at times like I was crazy! Not to belabor on this point…I’m here after all these years and I know now the “why” of that and the journey has been something!

There is more to say of course but I will follow up on this part a little later. I had better have my supper though as it’s 7 EST; past my normal time of eating.

Later; thanks for reading….comments welcome as this is an ongoing journey with friends!

Seeing the 9’s…

This was on Oct. 6th; I was drawn to this word that I had printed out back in 2017 from Prophet Fiorella Giordano and it was about “9’s” so knowing that this is the New Jewish New Year of 5779 that began in Sept. this year, I just pressed on to know more.

9 means>>> fullness=destiny, 9=fruit, and 9=birthing

Right away I saw/heard; “The Honorable Justice Brett Kavanaugh” being confirmed in Heaven, like it was happening right then; and really it was. God’s plan, His way, His Justice and His Samuel (which Prophet Charlie Champ saw), in the Supreme Court to make way for the rest that God wants sitting there…His….Deborah; 2nd… and 3 more to come I have heard.

So, I went for my walk this morning as I usually do and I decreed what I saw as Father’s “9” timing for 2018==>>5779 Jewish Calendar. I took that whole paper that I had printed out last year and made those proclamations into the 2nd heaven—wow! It was so clear to me! It’s favor, purpose and anointing that she spoke of only it is NOW! The Remnant Warriors in the body of Christ have come together in the Spirit and in prayer waves world-wide. This is a new thing in the Spirit realm and it’s powerful!!! God loves it! It’s in the power of His love and devils are raging, especially Leviathan, Jezzie and Haman spirits…..the so-called gods are shaking and quaking (as Prophet Mark Taylor has already said they would), and they haven’t done this since Jesus stripped their leader in hell of all authority, power and dominion he thought he had and took the keys of death, hell, and the grave! Whoopee!!! (my hand was shaking as I wrote this) The children of the Most High God have won!!! We will win even more! There is such a knowing in my spirit.

After this I saw another post on fb from Brother Mike Thompson about the Warriors of the Lion of the Tribe of Judah and it really confirmed this experience/encounter (I’m not sure what it is), and the Warriors were saying to the hordes of hell—WE WON!!! or—-WE WIN!!!…one of those. Anyway, this was powerful and I shared it with my friend Laura and she concurred. It is always wise to check these things out with a more experienced prophetic Sister or Brother. I learned this when I was under Christian International with Prophet Barbara Jackson, to have your words, experiences/encounters, etc. tested by others, and Prophet Jennifer LeClaire teaches this as well.

fyi…I call the Jezebel spirit Jezzie, not to be cocky but I hate that spirit and the Jehu anointing beats it any day

Fiorella Giordano’s word was on 8/30/2017 so you can check it out

Best Picture of a Woman Warrior (images on Google) that I could find. It is how I see myself…….only with Red hair…..LOL!


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Joy in the Father’s Love!

After reading one of the Chapters in a “Graham Cooke” book, this came to me…..so I thought I would share it.

And this is a big deal! knowing who we are;  if a person doesn’t see themselves this way (in the Father’s love), the way they truly are-in Christ….then every step they take will be hesitant and tentative at best. One can never be sure of anything. They don’t know their “state” because they don’t know their “standing”….wishy-washy, no clarity in anything, easily deceived- I can see it!

No wonder one goes around and around the mountain-in circles- in cycles of defeat! For sure Father wants us to break out of this so He just may set up our circumstances wherein He gives us insight into something, an opportunity to break free and based on that truth we are shown we can move out on it and break that cycle once and for all! I believe it! Here’s the thing though-it may look like our greatest defeat but “it isn’t.” It may look totally satanic, but it’s not. What it is though is God’s wisdom being poured out, in a way we have never seen before. When one knows that (and it’s only through relationship that one would), you can be at peace and rest because you can clearly see the whole thing; not through your eyes of dim and limited understanding but through His plan and purpose. It changes everything, especially ones perspective.

This font just keep changing….weird…..

Just penning my thoughts…..your’s are welcome…….




Here I am!

I’m back and it went through, wow! Without knowing what I’m doing; so far so good… So I can relax now and think about how I want to embellish this as I go. I really want to make it pretty and reflect me! Thank you Lord for your help today. You told me to just give it a try and I did; whoo hoo! Take a breath and…..

,It's time!!!

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